Monday, May 5, 2008

Hope and Joy

I have gotten really good at saying no and knowing our limits.

Usually only one of us will volunteer/commit to something. That helps cut down on the crazy because that leaves one of us to man the homefront while the other person can fully commit to the outside activity.

I don't even have the words to accurately describe the last several weeks. I have been pushed to my limit, and then beyond. Then pushed beyond that.

Talking it out seems to help. I don't mean listing complaints, but really revealing inside feelings and details. After talking to Joe on Friday, admitting I just can't do all this, admitting I don't seem to have Christian hope or joy...I am feeling more hope and joy.

Maybe I came to the end of mySELF and now am free to rely on God...maybe I had unrealistic expectations about how much hope and joy I should have. And what that should look like.

I think that I didn't know how to have hope and joy in the midst of a bad circumstance. In a way, I was putting "have hope and joy" on a mental to-do list..

Through these hard times, I believe that I learned how to have hope.

2 comments:

Cajunchic said...

I wish you could send some of that this way. I tend to over volunteer and then feel resentful because I am over booked.

Mrs. Darling said...

Knowing your limits goes along way toward finding joy and hope. Praying for you!